Sharon Osbourne has revealed how her depression led to three failed suicide attempts.
Speaking on The Talk on Tuesday, the 66-year-old said the third time was the wake-up call that made her pleased to be here, even though she still struggles.
The former X Factor judge has been treated for depression for over 20 years but did not give any further details about when, or what brought on, her decision to try to take her own life.
She said: ‘I was joking about my depression, but I shouldn’t, and I was like saying, “Oh the first time I tried to kill myself was OK, the second, all right, the third, oy.”
‘But, I’m still here, I still do what I do and you struggle. I wish everybody could think flowers and daisies and princesses, but you can’t.
‘…And we lived happily ever after – no we didn’t!’
It’s been four since Sharon took an emergency leave of absence from The Talk to focus on her mental health.
‘I had given up,’ she said when she returned to the show in September 2016. ‘I just couldn’t deal.
‘At a very low point in my life, I was very frightened about what was going on with me mentally and the thoughts that were going into my head constantly.’
Sharon experienced problems with her physical health in 2002 when she was diagnosed with colon cancer in 2002 and she went on to have a preventative double mastectomy in 2012.
She began taking anti-depressants in the late Nineties and wrote about her experience with dark thoughts in her 2007 memoir.
In the book, she also revealed that she has put plans in place for an assisted suicide in Switzerland if she were to ever get Alzheimer’s.
Ozzy has subsequently confirmed that he and Sharon have a ‘suicide pact’ in place for when their quality of life is diminished.
He recently revealed: ‘If I can’t live my life the way I’m living it now — and I don’t mean financially — then that’s it.
‘If I can’t get up and go to the bathroom myself and I’ve got tubes up my ass and an enema in my throat, then I’ve said to Sharon, “Just turn the machine off.”
‘If I had a stroke and was paralyzed, I don’t want to be here.’
