Ayda added: “When he’s on the plane he feels a sense of duty, whereas with me I feel like, ‘Why am I doing this? I’m so selfish’.
“They kind of expect daddy to leave, but you question yourself as a mum, you feel this extra sense of guilt.”
The former X Factor judge also offered a glimpse into their home life as she revealed the Angels hitmaker is not the “tidiest” person to live with.
“I never get petty with him, but when I get angry I have to talk to myself,” Ayda said. “Why the pee on the toilet or on the floor? Why put the dirty clothes next to the hamper and not in it?”