A MUM-OF-FOUR has admitted she “needs a break” and misses being “immature and selfish” as she opened up about the brutal reality of motherhood.
In an emotional Instagram post, Australian mum Jessica Hood, from Melbourne, said that she “doubts every decision” she makes for her family and often feels like she’s “drowning” in her own tears.
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“I miss being immature and selfish. I miss spending an entire pay check on myself. I miss being able to walk out of the house and go and do something for me without consequences,” she wrote.
The mum explained how motherhood has “played havoc” on her mental health and hit back at people who assume stay-at-home mums are “unemployed and lazy”.
Jessica – who has four children under the age of six – continued: “Believe me when I say I miss interacting with people everyday, going to work and wearing clothes that aren’t covered in spit up.
“Having a reason everyday to do my hair and makeup. Having adult conversations.”
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Although Jessica insists that her four children are “the best thing that’s ever happened to [her]”, she added: “I wish someone would listen , I wish someone would listen and understand without judging.
She asked: “Is it ok I fantasise some days about running away to a deserted island with endless cocktails and sunshine?
“I thought I’d be this amazing , relaxed , fun mother you know the ones you hear so much about but never actually meet?
“Some days I don’t wanna be the responsible one. Carrying all this weight on my shoulders. It gets to much somedays.
I miss being immature and selfish. I miss spending an entire pay check on myself. I miss being able to walk out of the house and go and do something for me without consequences
Jessica Hood
Her emotional post has racked up over 1,000 “likes” on Instagram and struck a chord with followers who are also mothers.
“Took the words rite out of my mouth,” one replied. “It’s a tough gig but one I wouldn’t change for a thing.”
Another added: “Thank you for speaking how I feel.”
Writing for Mamamia last year, Jessica candidly spoke about her struggle with allowing her husband to see her without clothes, admitting he hasn’t seen her naked since their first child was born six years ago.
Despite admitting to “accepting my body more and more every day”, Jessica confessed that she’s afraid “he won’t accept it” and that her fear of being vulnerable stands in her way.
Last week, Jessica revealed that her six-year-old daughter is desperate to lose weight – and the mum blames herself.
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