Ellie Goulding ‘wishes she spoke to her grandfather more’ as she opens up on his suicide

Ellie Goulding has revealed that she ‘wishes she had spoken to her grandfather more’, as she opens up about his suicide.

The singer tragically lost her grandfather after he took his own life a few years prior, and now she has stated that she wishes she was aware of how ‘unhappy’ he was during the final years of his life.

Taking to Instagram, Ellie shared a throwback photo of her swinging on a rope by a river, accompanying it with a lengthy statement, revealing that she wanted to speak about mental health awareness, following World Mental Health Day last week.

‘Today I’m thinking of my grandfather, who took his own life a few years back,’ she wrote.

‘I wish I had spoken to him more, and wish we could have had even the smallest clue of how unhappy he was.’

She later shared a few words of wisdom to those suffering from mental health issues, stating she is ‘proud’ of them.

‘I admire those who get out of bed every morning and seize the day, even when they’re not feeling too great,’ she said.

‘That requires a lot of courage. Please know that you are doing amazingly and I’m proud of you.’

Ellie also admitted that she was not prepared for the ‘ups and downs’ that come with a singing career, while revealing that her anxiety comes from a condition called ‘imposter syndrome’.

‘I know I chose this job but nothing could have prepared me for the ups and downs that come with it,’ she continued.

‘I know for sure that a lot of my anxiety has come from what they call ‘imposter syndrome’ not believing in myself enough and thinking that I don’t deserve happiness which sometimes results in sabotaging your own success.’