Bella Thorne reveals how she was 'molested her whole life' in emotionally charged Instagram post

Bella Thorne spoke frankly about her history of abuse on Instagram Tuesday.

Opening up in a lengthy Instagram Tuesday, the former Disney Channel actress, 21, revealed she was ‘molested her whole life.’

The actress/author/director started her screed by wondering about her ‘need’ for validation.

‘What is wrong with me? Why do I always need Validation from everyone but mostly men…’ she started, ‘What is wrong with me? Why do I always need Validation from everyone but mostly men… 

Seeming to address her relationship, she said: ‘Everyone keeps telling me to be single, be alone, and make your self happy. But All those things sound so fucking scary to me. all I want is him. I want him to hold me, I want him to love me, I want him to tell me it’s ok, I want him to look me in the eyes and let me know I’m accepted.’

‘Why? Because I can’t accept myself. For some reason in my head I’m just not fucking good enough. Not good enough for him or Her or anyone else. 

‘And if it’s not him I just look for the ‘next’ him, or her Why can’t I just look for the next me? Find me and accept me. 

‘Was it because I was molested my whole life,’ she wondered.

Validation: ‘What is wrong with me?’ Bella wrote. ‘Why do I always need Validation from everyone but mostly men…’ she started, ‘What is wrong with me? Why do I always need Validation from everyone but mostly men…’

‘Exposed to sex at such a young age it’s all I know how to offer to the world…or is it because I was raised to think I wasn’t good enough. Not good enough for her or anything else,’ Bella said.

‘But it doesn’t matter what happened to me.. What matters is whats happening to me right now. I can’t blame my childhood, in fact I can’t blame anyone for anything. 

She blamed herself for what happened.

‘All I can do is blame me. I blame me for not loving myself. I blame me for not thinking I’m attractive, I blame me for putting this on everyone around me. Expecting people to love me enough for me to love myself,’ Bella wrote.

‘But at the end of the day that will never happen. Because the only way to get to your end goal is to work through it. Not around or above or try and find a cheat code so you don’t have to hurt as much.

‘You have to hurt in this world. Hurting, loving, and accepting. That’s what our emotional world lays on. Right now I only have one of those things. Can you guess what it is? Hurting. Right now I only hurt…but I’m not hurting for other people no I’m only hurting myself. By not loving me and by not accepting me.’ 

An open book: Bella previously opened up about being abused in another poem from her book The Life Of A Wannabe Mogul: Mental Disarray

‘This poem is about mommy and daddy and me and you,’ she concluded.

Bella previously opened up about being abused in another poem from her book The Life Of A Wannabe Mogul: Mental Disarray.

‘He didn’t have to deal with the countless times he molested me, / he didn’t deal with the countless times I felt ashamed or disgusting,’ Thorne wrote.

She also wrote up about being molested in a 2018 Instagram post which she tagged #TimesUp.

Bella revealed: ‘I was sexually abused and physically growing up from the day I can remember till I was 14, when I finally had the courage to lock my door at night and sit by it.’

‘Over and over I waited for it to stop and finally it did. But some of us aren’t as lucky to get out alive,’ she said.

Her truth: She also wrote up about being molested in a 2018 Instagram post which she tagged #TimesUp